Namaste

Good morning my friends. I started this blog about a week or so ago, after ending my old one, but have yet to say anything. I wasn't quite sure where to begin, so this morning I'll start where I stand. I was blogging about this journey to become tough and to prove that I could finish the Tough Mudder in Tampa in December.

Two weeks ago, the time came to put my money where my mouth was and sign up for the race, and I just didn't want to. I wasn't that I thought I couldn't do it (although it does sound like a VERY hard race), I just have no urge to pay money to torture myself. For the past few months, I have barely been working out. No running, no yoga, no ladders. I think all of the pressure of the race took the enjoyment out of it and I stopped. I also felt guilty for wanting to go to yoga, because I should have been running or doing something more to train.

I am a big believer in taking care of your body, so that it can take care of you. My tipping point was when I realized that I felt guilty for wanting to do something that I love (yoga) and I let that guilt keep me from it. I felt like I couldn't not do the race because I had said that I would and I did not want to disappointment anyone. But I was disappointing myself. So I just decided not to do it. I told my brother I was out (sorry), and took the registration money I saved and bought a 10 class hot yoga package.

Ah, sigh, happy smile. I feel better already. Yoga 3 times a week has been good for my soul. I was laying on my mat during savasana thinking that I would love to go to yoga again tomorrow. No Nik (I said to myself), you need to run. And then I realized, nope. I don't have to do anything that isn't going to make me as happy as I deserve to be. I can go to yoga everyday if I want, and from this point on, I just might do that.

So that is where I stand. This blog is not a chronical of my yoga journey, although I am sure it will be mentioned quite a bit. It's just my thoughts and ramblings about what I am doing in my life to make myself a better person and the world a more lovely place. That being said, I am off to yoga to celebrate this beautiful morning and the free will that we all have to choose our paths in life.

Love.